that's simply life

NO LIFE NO YOU NO ME

2011-11-30T06:59:00.001-08:00

Hey GUYS! :)

i juat really feel like blogging bout crappy stuff like i used too!!!
i miss the good old days in my secondary school life.
lol it feels like i ended sec life a long time wen its only been a few weeks.

JAn, results. creepy much.
i hope my name gets on the screen
if not imma cry. maybe.
LOL well high expectation lead to high dissapointments

anyway.
im so bored.
i got no life ppl.
NO LIFE.
i meant its boring.
yeah freakin boring.
Friends working and all and im alone cos im JOBLESS
and im freakin BROKE.
well yeah watever

CRUMBS SCUMS

ok that was random...
can i say that my life has been ten times emptier without you?
Yeah it is.
Well thnks for walkong out of my life just like that
And stupid me for not running after you.
you know what i did?
Stand thr and watch you slowly walk out my life and try to turn the other way around.

Because this is not the first time i saw you walk out.
And everytime you would come back.
But not this time.
You just kept on walking.
i cant say whatever because you werent whatever.
You were ever-y-thing.
Until now that is.\

Now you were just a memory.
It doesnt stab my heart no more.
It never did. (maybe)
because we knew it would never work out.
GAh. just forget.
you wouldnt even care anyway :'(

Ok d0ne with the emo stuff
i just want to be happy.

now i lost mood. :(
well bye

IK

2011-09-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

I JUST WANT TO BLOG RIGHT NOW!

gosh! miss blogging soo much especially in my lower sec years.
so much of babbling.
so much time:') sniff.

ALRIGHT WAT NOW?

OLEVELS IN ONE MONTH!! (sort of)
(anw my typing speed now sux cos its been long since i blog)

everythings ok i guess
NO!
my chem i need to secure an A1!
esp since my chem teacher thinks i cant do it (sob)
NO! i must not give up!
I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU!

k next, humanities! keep gettin b3 near a1 or a2 near a1 Wth??

A1 PEOPLE!!

I WANT ALL A1!!! (i must be crazy)

CRAZY GOOD:)

my EL like so-so

ive decided to do a nararive0 personal recount instead of...
that boring expository essays.
Seriously? its so factual.

have a little colour in ur life.
i so wanna be a part-time author.
(just gotto work on my language)
planning on a story rite now.
Oh, im soooo gonna be the next JK ROWLING, FTW!

my malay! GOT TO BUCK UP! Darn
suckish. cos i havent done malay for a VERRRRY long time
sniff. i want a b3 at least :(((

kay...animore?

maths. no doubt i want an A1.
not saying im conferm ill get it (cos that would be cocky)
im sayin I WANT IT. real bad.
my science, yesh of course.

iwantiwantiwantiwant those sweet victorious A1s.
and i want my name to be on that screen, baby.
oh heaven yeah.

ohplsohplsohpls:)
i wanna jump around in happinesss
cry tears of joy
and get my photo taken.
<3

then ill be like calling my family
shouting thru the phone-
"OH MY GOD! IBU(mom), AYAH(dad), I GOT 7 POINTS!!!" (thats my aim:>)
YEY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Allah is almighty :)
Syukur Alhamdullilah. (appreciating god)

haha/im crazy

i know.
iffah

OH WAIT! i forgot smth.
i SHIP DAMSAY, PPL <3

2011-01-06T03:15:00.000-08:00

my graduation poem/ speech/ wateva (LOL, so fast prepare arrhh??)

finally
at last
weve soon to be
going on our own
our own seperate ways.

but its okay.
the memories weve shared.
could never be replaced.
if only there was a replay button.
then i would replay those memories.
everytime.
but sadly, i could only replay
them in my head.

someday we ll all meet again.
and we smile at those times.
where you and i were so playful
so carefree of our lives.

we might have grown.
we might have aged.
but one thing that never grows old
is those sweet memories of you and i.

so long my frens
its been a great ride.
thanks for the laughs.
thanks for the smiles.
and i wish u all the best.

lets not hang around the past
time waits for no one.
come on my frens
bright future awaits for you and i.

a tear ive shed to seal this poem.
thank you.

:'( omg idk why the hell i wrote this. not even a poem.
i feel like ive graduated. haha
wens its only starting of year.
but hey. be prepared.
i think im gonna bawl out on graduation day.
bring lots of tissues, guys.
thrs gonna be a pool of tears.
anw. im just being random.
escaping doin hw again.
man y cant my brain be sooooooo SMART???
haha lol.
k la. sorry brain.
you are smart. (LOL!)

ok. better continue my essay.

iffah

2010-12-29T04:25:00.000-08:00

Updates: sch's starting in one week and i havent completed my hw!!

anw aside from that.
notin else happened.
im bored.
what a boring life i have.

i read this article sumwhere that blogs are not good if they are set to public.
Like mine. O.O
where everybody can see.
esp pedophilles watever. those stupid perverts(stupid ppl with no life) lookin for victims.

why are they no good.
bcos.
ppl usually blog bout their life.
and wen they give out too much.
they fall victim.
i know u guys might say but i never give out my add. my phone no or where i go to sch work bla bla and stuff.
i used to be one of u ppl denying giving out any info.

that is until i stumble upon this article.

it says.
ppl dun realise that wen they blog.
theyre giving out info where they live, their whereabouts and thir sch workplace and stuff.
thats how police sumtimes able to track down crminals online.
and these stupid perverts with no life can too.

for example,
we ppl nowadays just LOVE to brag about where we go durin our hols.
take pic here and there.
publish here and there.
(bring on the compliments)
so u'll update in advance youre going to lets say Hawaii for two weeks.
cmon its like a signal msg to burglars sayin:
Yo my house is empty yo.

Sure, u might say they dk where u live but then again ud never know who th burglar is.

Aniwaes. just sayin.
im warnin u guys but im still keepin my blog public.
cos im PReety sure nobody reads it. haha
BUT
u never know.
(U HEAR ME U STUPID PEDO-watever, ONE DAY THE POLICE GONNA CATCH YOU AND PUT YOU ALL IN JAIL!!!)

ehem.sry bout that. anger management issues. LOL

anw. im endin it here. and keepin it real LOL (as if)

signed/
iffah K.
smile to the world. and you just might find someone smiling you back.
( just make sure its not one of those pedophilles. o.o)

2010-12-07T02:36:00.001-08:00

AHHH. shit.

i just had to go to ur profile
and guess wat?
once i saw it, im back to the road i used to go again

*sigh*
i guess there are some crushes you just cant get over

BUT
im gettin thr.
platonic relationships, oh yea.

So enough with the trash talk i had just now
and up with updates
Here's what ive been doing:

* online
* online
* online
* online
* online
and so on...

its such a schedule aint it?
WELL YEA IM FREAKIN BORED
thr;s nothin to do but rot at home

oh yea, where did all my freinds go?
idk. prob rottin at home too like me...

GAH IM BORED
not to mention hw is a pain to even start let alone complete it

and next year..
shit syf...results to olevel malay(damn)...olevels

hate it
life is so stressful
wish i could escape to a dreamland or smth

too bad
thats y im so addicted to harry potter nowadays
that ive made a short story bout my fav couple:)
LUNA AND NEVILLE

check it out:

The night that day was calm and serene. No disturbances, no noise. Nor were there any death eaters roaming about Hogwarts’ territory. Just the melody of snores and the rhythmic breathing of the students sound asleep. However, not all students were in their bed, snoozing. Looking at his watch, Neville got up from his bed and quickly put on his open-toed shoes along with his school robes over his pink and white striped pyjamas. Softly as well as swiftly, he made his way out of the Gryffindor common room and upstairs to the Clock Tower. He could hardly wait his anticipation of watching the Moonflower that blooms once every 10 years only in midnight. This was one event Neville does not need a Remembrall to remind him of it. He had kept the plant growing at the Clock Tower to prevent any disturbances. Finally he had reached the tower and glanced his watch again. With 15 minutes to spare before the clock strikes midnight, he sat there and decided to enjoy the quiet moment to gaze at the starry night.

As he lay there, counting the infinite stars above it, he suddenly heard a shuffling behind him. Swiftly, he turned around, his eyebrow furrowed. His heart thumping loudly in his chest. There was silence again and he took it that maybe it had been a mouse or a small harmless creature crawling about. As he was about to resume his gaze to the sky, the shuffling sound came about again, only louder as if it was nearer. Not only that, Neville also heard faint footsteps drawing closer and closer to him. Neville’s eyes darted from left to right, trying to define whose footsteps was it. Neville was already drawing out his wand from under his robes. The footsteps were now loud and clear and Neville could see a shadowy figure coming close. The frightened Gryffindor gulped, awaiting his horror.

“Luna?” The confused young man was very surprised to see his young odd friend who had been the frightening shadowy figure.

The girl, named Luna, with straggly, dirty blonde hair, was dressed in a unique but somehow a bit bizarre pattern of turquoise-coloured three-headed sheep for a nightdress that had a very geometric cutting. Even her bunny slippers she was wearing were a bit odd, if it was even a bunny. It looked like more like crossbreed between a bunny and crocodile to Neville. The animal had the ears, the cute round eyes and the long whiskers of a bunny but it had a long snout of the crocodile but with only two-buck teeth at the front.

“Luna!” Neville called out her name again but louder.

The odd girl, however, did not respond. She walked on past Neville as if she did not see him there. Neville soon found out why she did not respond. Her eyes were close and it appeared that she had been sleep walking all the way from the Ravenclaw common room to up here. Before she could harm herself by wandering somewhere else, he quickly grabbed the sleepwalker by the shoulders and shook her body, attempting to wake her up.

“ Luna, Luna…Wake up. Wake up, Luna! Luna Lovegood!”

The dazed girl finally open her eyes and blinked. Her protuberant silvery grey eyes, stare straight into Neville’s eyes, as though trying to idenitfy who he is or still recovering from her sleeping state. The shy boy grew uncomfortable of this and he shook Luna again making sure she was wide-awake…then again, Luna had never been fully awake.

“Neville…” She finally voiced out, her voice as dreamy as it had always been. “Is it training session already?(referring to DA)”

“What? No, Luna. You’re…We’re in the clock tower in Hogwarts.You’ve been sleep walking.”

“ The clock tower? Oh my, I heard there are lot of wrackspurts zooming around. They’re invisible, you know. That’s why most people don’t believe they exist. They fly into your ears and make your brain feel funny.” Luna explained, ignoring the fact that she had been sleep walking.

“Wrack-what? wrack-Burps? Rackferns, you mean?” Neville stutter, confused.

“Wrackspurts.” Luna corrected him. “Come on, Neville…I don’t want us to get our brains all fuzzy-” Luna said as she grabbed Neville by the hand and began walking towards the stairs.

“No, wait. Luna, I came hear to watch my Moonflower bloom- Oh my gosh! My Moonflower!” Neville frantically break free from Luna’s grip, look at his watch, almost forgetting that it was almost time for the flowers to bloom.

The frantic boy whirled around just in time, to anticipate the magnificent bloom of this majestic Moonflower. He walked closer to it, his eyes bulging in delight. Luna followed after him, curious to see this ‘Moonflower’ Neville had mentioned.

Luna was confused at first. It was not even a flower, but a tiny boring grey bud, that was about to bloom. Most people would have expected that even when fully bloomed, it would have still turned out an unintersting ugly flower. However, what Luna saw surprised her. The bud begins to unravels each of its petals, glowing brighter than the shining crescent moon and the stars against the dark blue sky. Finally, the last petal was revealed and the flower looked almost 10 times more huge than the teensy weensy bud Luna had saw. Each petal was unique and beautiful in its colours and pattern but all was shimmering with the shiniest glitter you could ever seen. The unique and different design of each petal seemed to potray a fantasy fairytale. Overall, the flower was so beautiful that no words could describe it. Neville and Luna watched this once-in-a-lifetime event with astonishment.

“ It’s sooo beautiful…I’ve never seen quite a flower before” said her soft melodic voice suddenly.

“In the olden times, people said that when you see the bloom of a Moonflower, all your wishes will come true.” Neville informed Luna, without tearing his gaze from the flower.

“Oh, really? That’s nice,” said Luna as she began to close her eyes and clasped her hands together, as if making a slient wish.

Finally, its time of bloom ends and a new life begins for this flower as one by one, slowly, the petal wrapped each other once again. The stunning flower which both of them has seen just a moment before, now forms into the same little dull bud.

Neville heaved a sigh. “Well, it’s over now. But I’m glad I got to watch its bloom-”

Neville paused when he face Luna and realised that she still had her eyes closed and palms together, her lips moving up and down quickly as if she was chanting a spell.

“Luna, Luna…It’s over. Y-you can stop wishing now.” Neville placed his hand on Luna’s shoulder and shook it gently.

Luna blinked her eyes open. Her expression was shock, bewildered.

“Over? Where did the flower go?” She cried.

“Oh, well you see, Luna, It-it only blooms for a certain time in midnight. And the moonflower only blooms once every 10 years.”

“10 years? Well, that’s a very long time.”

“Yeah it is…the first time I watch its bloom, was with my grandmother when I was about 6 years old.” Neville recalled the memories where he used to sit by the window with his grandmother, waiting for the flower to reveal its beauty.

Neville had taken care of the flower since he was 4 years old. When he first went to Hogwarts for his first year, he left it at home as he felt it was too fragile and special to bring it with him. Only when he was in his forth year, had he decided he was ready to take care of it himself without his grandmother’s help. However, he did not tell anyone about the special flower. Not even his closest friend, Harry.

“This moonflower. It must be very special to you” Luna said dreamily, smiling as she face Neville.

“Huh? O-Oh…Yes, Very special.” Neville snapped into reality. “It’s been taken care by my family for generations. The flower must have been about a 500 years old by now...”He continued.

“A 500 years old. Wow…” She said in a low whisper. Her twinkling eyes that were dazzled by the flower before, now became confused. “It’s funny, isn’t it? Now, it looks like a small timid little bud, awaiting its time to bloom, preparing for the real world and the unknown. Most people would have thought this timid little bud would never be like the other beautiful flowers. But the fact is, while the others flowers bloom and grow bigger, out shadowing this ugly bud; it prepares and waits for the right moment. When its time comes, it becomes the most beautiful and outstanding flower.. And then, it turns into the timid little bud again, as if it is reborn again. And the cycle continues… ” She expressed her view in a way which seemed very poetic and inspiring.

“ Wow… I never thought of it that way…” Neville nodded his head slightly, showing a thoughtful expression. “ Anyway, Luna. Thank you, really… It’s quite w-wonderful to have someone, other than Gran, to watch this special occasion with me…I really enjoyed it” Neville blushed as Luna stared at him.

“ I enjoyed it very much too! It’s just too bad, though, that it only blooms for a certain time. And I haven’t even finished wishing yet…” Luna said as a matter of fact. Her lips curled.

“That must have been a long wishing list!” Neville chuckled.

“Oh! Of course! It’s very rare that you find a flower that grants your wishes”

Neville let out a short laugh. He somehow find it quite amusing seeing this odd blonde being so gullible.“ You really believe in all those stuff, Luna?”

“You don’t?” Luna’s faint eyebrows furrowed.

Neville shook his head.

Luna’s expression changed from hopeful to disappointment.

“ It doesn’t hurt to believe in some things and keep an open mind, Neville.” She wagged a finger at him and said in a very motherly tone.

“What do you wish for anyway?” Neville asked out of curiosity.

“Neville! I can’t tell you my wishes! Hasn’t anybody told you that wishes are meant to be a secret?” Luna smiled, patting Neville’s nose, as she started prancing gracefully towards the stairs.

“Why?” Neville asked, curious, rubbing his nose..

“Because then they won’t come true if I told you, silly boy! I told you that place is infested with wrackspurts! I bet one had zoomed right into your ear and make your brain go all fuzzy!” Luna giggled. Her voice surprisingly high-pitched as she continued prancing down the stairs, leaving Neville standing there alone in the clock tower.

“ But..but…Wrackburps aren’t real!”
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how was it? haha
anw
igtg
peace out :)

Iffah K
the dreamer

2010-10-17T20:07:00.000-07:00

"Life ia a road that wanna I keep going"

What happened to Lani Garver by Carol Plum-Ucci.
Love the book
Love its unpredictability
Love that Lani guy SO DAMN BAD
Hate that the ending got readers questioning the title
Would recommend you guys this book
Would change your lives in some way
It did on me:)

Smiling,
Gleeing,
Jumping up and down reading the story
Moaning,
Gritting my teeth,
Stamping my feet reading the story
Almost cried at the ending
Unsatisfied.
Shit. What really happened to him???

This book got me thinking and believing all kind of bullshit and crap.
"There's this thing called Middle ground.."
Man, Lani's wisdom philosophy crap influencing my brain
Love that guy to the core
Wished he was real.

READ it
cos its worth it. :)

"In the end i wanna be standing at the beginning with you..."

2010-08-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

DEAD! tothemax
but who cares?

anw
been extra bz wif sch and stuff
2months time ill be having my OLEVEL MALAY!!
:S
i dun wanna take it! :'( WAIL~
sniff sniff

ok.watever. its not the end of the world if i didnt make it or smth.

ohya. i noe blogs are like soo outdated nowadays
but i was wondering why we didnt have a class blog for 3/7 or smth
to keep things updated
esp. abt the part where we won the RHD performance WOHOO~

such good memories
really enjoyed it
in the beginning we were like NO dun wan do NO i hate it NO it SUCKS
and then we were like 3/7 FTW!

yea~ hope our class becum more bonded.
the class wif only 9 guys and the rest are the female species.
haha

Ok next topic..
OHOHOHOH!! i got his no. peeps~
yea~ pretty COOL~
finally :D
hehe almk cant be so obvious
what if he blog hop till my blog??
okok enough x)

next...
JAPAN TRIP
i soooo wanna go!!
but the price i sooo wanna cry!!
cost: 2.5K
NOOOOO D':
ask the teach if can subsidise further
she say at most 1.5K
but my dad wants it a $9ook
so most prob i cant

but i soooo wanna see MT FUJI!!!!
iwannagoiwannagoiwannagooooooooo!!~
and its autumn time were goin!
meaning a great way for autumn fashion!!
i so wanna try autumn clothes!
GRRRR
oh well. only time can tell

OK i guess i end off here.
all things updated for the last 3/4 months??
xP
Iffah :)

2010-06-14T20:11:00.001-07:00

OK. im being really random. I made 2 short stories. so here it is.

k, this one is super long. its best read with the song i put in my soundtrack "at the beginning". the sory maybe be a bit confusing though. nvm, im gonna explain.

Okay. here's the intro, epilouge or watever.
Mae and Jake were like enemies at first, keep fighting, all that. So suddenly Jake knew Mae's biggest secret and he is the only one who knew it. To keep Jake's mouth shut, Mae had to do something. Mae knew Jake like a girl but never really had the confidence to ask her out. So she made a deal with Jake that she'll help him win the heart of the girl of his dreams. (since she's such pro in all these type things) So they go through a couple of tasks and whatever but secretly Throght this, they created a friendship and then deeper (u noe wat it is). So came the final test: Jake had to take Mae out for a date and Mae will grade him to see if he passed or not. (its the part below)_____________________________________________________________________________________

“So..how did i do?”

“Hmm..Let’s see... perfect timing...great gift...romantic date destination...But, it’s still missing something..you know. I mean i would grade you an A but there’s still something, I don’t know. There’s something you got to do to make it a perfect romantic scene like in the movies, you know.”

“ Hahah..you mean... like this?” He took out from his pocket to reveal a red rose.

“ Hahah..Classic..She would like that. I guess you deserve an A+, twinkle toes.”

“ Hahah. Thanks, Mae. Here.”

Mae was surprised for a moment. He was giving the rose to her, literelly.She took the rose and looked at it. She had this strange feeling inside of her as she recieved the rose. Could it be? She thought. All this while Jake and her was just friends, even enemies at first. It all started from a stupid deal that Mae had with him. But now? Mae was unsure of it.
As she looked at Jake, he was gazing back intently at her. It was for a few seconds before they looked away. And suddenly, Mae was sure of it. Both of them were falling for each other.

She felt awkward. Both of them felt awkward. Mae was biting her lip while Jake was scruffing his hair. Ther was initmate silence for a minute before it was broken when a ringtone played. Jake reached his pocket and took out his phone.

“Hello?”
“Oh, Jess? What’s wrong? You wanna meet me?”

Mae looked up. She realised it was Jess, the real reason for all of this that had happened, who had called him.

“Alright. I’ll be there.” He pressed the red phone button on his switch.

Jake looked at Mae who was looking at him.

“It’s ermm..Jess..she wants to..me-”

“Well, then you can go. We’re done, right? You can now finally ask her for a date now cause you’ve got an A+..”she smiled.

“Okay..i’ll call a cab and sent you home” , he offered, pressing the buttons to dial.
“ Nah, it's okay. I can go home by myself..”

“But..” Jale still insisted.

“it’s alright..i can-“

“ No, Mae. I cant leave you alone by yourself here”

Mae was taken aback by his choice of words.

“Uh...im actually waiting for Ash..She’s coming here to pick me up.” Mae scanned her thoughts for a reason.

“You sure?”

Mae nodded her head.

“Well, maybe i could wait with you till Ashely comes..”

“No! Can’t u stop worrying about me?” She laughed.

“I’ll be fine. I’m a big girl, you know.” She smiled.

Jake smiled back. “ Okay”

“Now, go. Jess needs you. Before i’ll grade you a C- for making a girl wait for you this long!”

Jake laughed and ran off.

Mae laughed and smiled. Then she gaze into the open sky. She had to lie to Jake. She didn’t want to be with Jake any longer. If not, She’ll keep falling for him deeper and she know they’re not meant to be. They cannot see each other anymore .This had to be the last day they spent time with each other.
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I noe its real cheesy. but hey, ppl like this cheesy love stories xD k next one, totally different. a girl being depressed and then she~.....:O oooo~scary
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She stared at the pictures. Her eyes filled with tears. And then she ripped it. She ripped it, one by one, so hard into many bits of pieces and flung them out of her window her window. She felt a moment of satisfaction as if she just let out all her anger by ripping those pictures. But then the emptiness came back and so as the tears. She clenched her wrist and bang against her table, sweeping away all her stationery items onto the floor and let it shatter into a million of pieces like her hopes and dreams. She let out a huge cry and cursed the one person who made her life miserable, who made everything clear that the world is nothing but evil. She only wished that that particular incident, which changed her life forever, never happened. She knew she got no one to blame but her. She had lost everything she ever hoped for. Now, nothing was important. Not even her life. She cupped her face with her hands and isolated herself at a corner. Her tears overflowing as she poured her heart out. The sounds of the endless knocking on the door and shouts to open it kept ringing in her ears. She wanted to zone it all out. The sounds. Her misery. People. Life. She wanted everything to be over. She picked up a broken peice of glass and with a slash or two on each of her wrist, she fell back, gasping for her last breath. Her world turns dark.
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im not depressed or anything. kay?

OKAY so im done. HOPE U ENJOY IT :D and pls do comment about my stories :P
Iffah :)

2010-04-01T17:02:00.000-07:00

GREAT!
frum now on
no more posting bout him

OK
hmm
wat shud i post?
a vid?
i guess, nth to do...

I ABSOLUTELY LURV THIS VID!
hehe
cos im im fifteen ALR PPL!! :D
haha and anw
i like taylor's music vid
ITS SO MAGICAL AND WONDERLAND :D
haha
ok here's the lyrics

You Take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
it's the morning of your very first day
you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
try and stay out of everybody's way
it's your freshman year and you're gonna be here for the next four years in this town
hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
you know i haven't seen you around before

chorus
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
well count to ten, take it in this is life before you know who you're gonna be
fifteen

you sit in class next to a redhead named abigail and soon enough you're best friends
laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool we'll be out of here as soon as we can
and then you're on you're very first date and he's got a car and you're feeling like flying
and you're mama s waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
and you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends when the night ends

Chorus:
cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them
when you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin 'round but
in your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
i didnt know it at fifteen

when all you wanted was to be wanted
wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
back then i swore i was gonna marry him someday but i realized some bigger dreams of mine and abigal gave everything she has to a boy who changed his mind
we both cried

chorus:
cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them when you're fifteen dont forget to look before you fall
i've found time can heal most anything and you just might find who you're supposed to be
i didn't know who i was supposed to be
at fifteen

lalalalala...lalalalala...lalalalala
your very first day take a deep breath girl
take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

END
byess ppl.
rmb me as IK. without the d
and dun forget to smile:)

2010-03-11T06:03:00.000-08:00

im a bit bored actually
usually this blogging doesnt last long...
only to the extreme extent of boredeness do i then u se this "BLOG"
lol -_-

so far, nth happened
i mean no progress btween us :(
i mean yarh, he's busy..so its acceptable larh
haiz... sumtimes i dun even noe wat to do..
i mean should i hold on to him and keep hoping that someday wishful day he might return those feelings?
OR should i give up and move on?
Its difficult to move on...
everytime i see his face, it makes my heart skip a beat/
haha.

AND i mean if he has another "one", then its okay
but i hope it doesnt come frum one of "us"
cos i'll be really shocked
i mean i noe u cant help ur feelings... but the least is you could tell me
i mean so i get a warning signal/
and shout at you "NO FLIRTING!"
lol XD

grrr nth to tok about. its likealways him always him
i hope u guys dun read this in detail
i mean seriously.
its Full of RUBBISH
HAHA
wif some kind of twisted emotion
but anw thats wat blogs are for
EXPRESSING ur FEELINGS

ok
i lazy type
BYeees

IK (DIK) :P

2010-03-10T02:38:00.000-08:00

Do you or not like me?

i keep waiting for a sign

sometimes you do.

sometimes you do not.

So?

It make my heart jump whenever its on

but it breaks my heart whenever its off

So?

you smile.

sometimes first. sometimes not

So?

i said hi.

u respond.

but sometimes you seem reluctant to carry on.

So?

i hate all these sumtimes.

Cant you just tell me?

So...do you or not like me?

Or are we just friends?

So...?

So? poem
Originally by

IK XD

Just Smile

If DI asked you out for Valentine's Day, what would you say?

2010-03-09T02:03:00.000-08:00

PPL! backy-back
idk wat to post hmmm~

post about hiM?
again?
borin rite?
ermmm
OH maybe i put vid
about a song that keeps playin in my head..
cos of ss lesson
kkK..here it is! enjoy~

LYRICS~

Yes

I can't believe the news today
Oh, I can't close my eyes and make it go away
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long? How long?
'Cause tonight we can be as one, tonight

Broken bottles under children's feet
Bodies strewn across the dead end streets
But I won't heed the battle call
It puts my back up, puts my back up against the wall

Sunday, Bloody Sunday
Sunday, Bloody Sunday
Sunday, Bloody Sunday

And the battle's just begun
There's many lost but tell me who has won
The trench is dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters torn apart

Sunday, Bloody Sunday
Sunday, Bloody Sunday

How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long? How long?
'Cause tonight we can be as one
Tonight, tonight

Sunday, Bloody Sunday
Sunday, Bloody Sunday

Wipe the tears from your eyes
Wipe your tears away
Oh, wipe your tears away
Oh, wipe your tears away
Oh, wipe your blood shot eyes

Sunday, Bloody Sunday
Sunday, Bloody Sunday

And it's true we are immune when fact is fiction and TV reality
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die
The real battle just begun to claim the victory Jesus won on

Sunday Bloody Sunday
Sunday Bloody Sunday

OK.
sundaybloodysundaysundaybloodysunday...

i love the solo guitarist! he plays wif passion, dude!
look how the way he moves~ its so freakin COOL

IK

2010-03-03T05:35:00.000-08:00

BOOMz. ppl~
im at cloudy nine
my cloud SO F.HIGH
im sooooo happy~!!!!!!!

my heart jumping
im smiling so hugely
ESTATIC. ELECTRIFYING. *faints*
!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sumbudy carry me. im feeling weak all over
the good kind of weak:)
only one last thing left
whrs the numbers??
C'mon. y arent u asking me th no.???
GRRRR...SLOW arh u..
make me wanna slap u larh...WAKE UP!!

HAHA
*gleaming*
nontheless...IM STILL HAPPY!!!!!!!!<3<3<3

"get a hold of urself, iffah..."
HAHA
faster pls? ure slow
n u always dun make the first move...
n not once u said my name
but ur smile is enough:)

I.K
SMILE PPL!!:D

2010-02-26T15:32:00.000-08:00

woah~ supersupersupersuperextrareallydoodlyDEAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
HAHAHA
i wonder ppl still keep reading my blog LOL~

iwent thru my blog posts...
WAH~ brings back memories
haha

Sooo many about iffah no 1~(if u guys noe anything about it)
grrrr..so many things happen
but not like i used to
cannot even smile!
but now YEAH!~ wave skali
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!
my heart just skipped whenever he smiles at me:D
but cannot be too happy arx
later TAK MENJADI
anw..its like on and off
cos of me arh...im like hiding in my shell, playin safe all the time haiz..
SERIOUSLY! i wanna noe how he feels about me
Just a friend?
Close mate maybe?
OR....(k..i must be dreamingXD)

KK..STOP!
hahax

i dun feel the mood to post the minor exciting things that happen
MALAS~
anw
sec 3 life now is like YEAH~ MOVING TO THE UPPER
we practically seniors~ haha this close!
BUT
subs SUX..
ihatephysicsihatechemihatehighermalayihateEmathihateAmathihatenglishihateALLofthem..
first its BORING
second its UNUNDERSTANDABLE
like wth??physics??
OMG~ i almost wanna die alr!!!!!!
SUMBODY PLS HALP!!!!
iregret man
shud have taken BIO\:((

haiz..kk
summore wat?? errmmm...
ouh yarh..
got a new BEST BUDD XD
hahaha
so funny and sudden~ LOLX...
dun wish to elaborate on it..
hahas

ok lastly...anyone noe the MEANING OF LIFE??
i mean school
we spent most of our time of our lives thr
sitting and just listening to the teacher
absorbin info
IS THIS REALLY OUR LIVES??
i feel its not living our lives to the fullest
i mean i noe KNOWLEDGE is important
but
we could do it excitingly
travel the world...see how the outside world - they have more knowledge and meaning thant tose STUPID txtbooks we paid for
and schools are like a cheap way of learning
cos u only need to study those written info
but u never really get to see or experience them
LIKE WTF, rite??
i noe they got practical all that stuff and school journey
BUT its not enough
PPL learn more by DOING
AND
sg students focus too much on learning like those stupid equations that we may NEVER use it in life later unless we becum a boring old mathematician-_-
and most of us just go with the flow .. watever things that we're good in we just go and take that subject
WE NEVER REALLY GO FOR WHAT WE REALLY WANT
cos in society this days, they keep scaring the shit out of us by sayin
DO WEL FOR UR MATH ENG SCI
and we focus on this too much we forgot about all those general knowledge
i mean i seriously heck care the news nowadays
ppl in sch dun really musch tok about the new-_-
so u get wad i mean??
i blame MOE for this!!!!
i serious;y hope they change the system
like american's system- u see how the edu system is( dun wan elaborate)
OK so...LIFE???

hahas
kk
im like DEBATING
LOL

k bye ppl!
and rmb!
The World is Full Of SMILES :)
so SMILE XD

IK:P

2010-01-01T22:49:00.000-08:00

Im BACKy-BACK!
...to post...and frum the HOLS!!

HAHA..Happiee new year btw..
Cant wait till sch reopens!!!
Cant wait to see my BESTIES!!!
haha..too many stories to tell!!!

especially about my hols!
'Yeah..cant wait to tell about the cutiee boy i met wen on hols!'

HAha!..im like so lazy to post about my hols trip..
But cant wait to tell it!!

Anwaes...better get ready to sch...
urgh..ni yg malas ni..
sec 3 .. tough year..
0 level hml this year..AAAAHH
panic!
no time to play animore!! *sniff*

u noe wat??
wen i was on a hol trip..
it was like u leave all ur stress..normal life routines back
and its like you're in a dream
Haizz...but all good things must come to an end...
and at one time and another u gotta wake up - (Avatar movie quote) hehe..
all the things that used be in ur life returns to you..
and u realized how much ur real life sucked...
haha..not really sucked but compare to ur dream holiday.lol

i like holidays..but wen it ends..it just sucked..
haiz...and i got to say bye-bye to cutiee boy..

lol..okaes,,tats it..
HNY..every1!!

iffah

2009-10-27T02:21:00.000-07:00

HI! PPL!
mE here...
K..now got mood to post. :)

YES!! Dikir Barat is BACK, PPL!!
and we are PERFORMING this Friday!!! WOOO!!
fun, fun, funny!

YES! iffah no. 1~

new ppl joined to make bigger group.
new song, new moves...
SHooT, places changed...
prefer last time...
ANW, all OKaes...

Just now, Dikir Barat practice...
wear guy baju kurung
Woots~haha klakar sikit
backstage, PANAS!!!
played a New Game liyana created.
FUN!

got one time, played wif yanty, iffah no.1 beside us...

dunno if he watching or not..

Yesterday, DEBATE..almk
SPOIL...
haha played a prankon Langer
SABO HIM..
hahaha YES YES
GO field ... he ask us to scream..
AAAAAA!!!!!
so weird
LOL
SABO SHURA TERUK!
hehe...she had to say "I AM THE HOTTEST GIRL IN THE WORLD!" loudly...XD
kk..thats all
bb
Iffah;P

A crush over you is hard to get by on

cos you're owned and i cant get over you

2009-10-23T18:05:00.000-07:00

NO mood to post anitin rite now
maybe another day...
lol
ok
BYE
iffah

2009-10-18T19:28:00.000-07:00

BITCH.

No Longer will i freak out, No longer will i be estatic
cos im over you.
Just drop the subject and dont bring it up
cos i can bear it no more.
But though i said this, like this is the end
i know i wont stop dreaming you again:)

Thats all.
Iffah:)

2009-10-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

HEY!
wah, im dead tired..
3 days of endless outing and activities

1st day
went causeway arcade wif my old peeps
2nd day
went WM watch novie and Lot 1 for dinner (& took neo-print:P)
At Night, cuz visit, play till past midnight
3rd day (yesterday)
went JB and Woodlands to visit family

OMG im exhausted.
but lol its totally FUN! :D

the movie i watched; 500 days of summer.
AWSOME. yes...it was but kinda ermm, u noe wat i mean
took neo-print at lot 1
FABULOUS. first time wif friends..:P
my money all flew away
on ARCADE at causeway and MOVIE and DINNER at pizza hut and NEO-PRINT
WOW! habis duitku semue.

anw, the 2nd day, friday
Movie: 500 days of Summer.
AWESOME! great movie rated it 5 :) but ermm...it was a bit..you noe wat i mean
Dinner at pizza hut at lot 1;) took this long to decide HAHA
Neo-print. 1 word BESTEST!!
so funny and GREAT! ACC!! lol

then went back home, cuz there.
PLAY XBOX, i rock at KUNG FU CHAOS!! WOO!!!
ULTIMATE WINNER two times in a row!!!!
chatted on msn wif another cuz, kacau kacau on webcam
dunno why suddenly created NOOB club...
cos i think my cuz keeps calling us NOOB, lol
OMG, liyana im becoming more like you XD

3rd Day, saturday
went JB
OMG JAM like HELL
2 hours stuck at johor linkway
cant feell air con! PANAS LIKE HELL!! Panas TERIK DOK!!
i was complaining all thru the way..finally they got me to shut up -__-
ANW, reached my dad's fren house, wah so cool designers house LOL
got horror movie warched for a while..
wah bulu roma sume naik

K, then went our relatives house
my dad sesat..typical...
got my uncle sent us here..
OK, played wif our cuz...there
THEN, go back s'pore...to my another cuz house...at WOODLANDS
on com and PS2
then yah till 11. 40 pm

NOW i was trying to watch THE CHORUS french movie that we got watch during music
too bad no english subs
guess have to rent the dvd
k..i guess its just that
Iffah:)

Guess i already knew it
that we're not meant to be
You have me dreaming for a while there
but i woke up to find me back in painful reality
Like i said...Lets Just Be Friends :)

2009-10-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

WOOTS!~
This calls for a celebration!
Celebration time, C'mon!
hAha! lol

YES! finally its like been 4eva since i used the com
and now im back posting:D

time to sLaCk,(thats what i do BEST;P) have FuN and just go WILD!!
lol...ok not that wild...
gonna have sum fun activities this holidays
CANT WAIT!

anw, about my exams...
all my papers oklah
scared i cant get top 40. wanna choose double science :) physics+chem
aww. next year Canggih seperated. :(
so sad. anw i think we shud all be in the same HML class
...unless i decided to drop HML. (considering..nt sure see results)

Hey! just now went arcade at causeway wif my ex-peeps. Amelia, Norita And Namira.
Namirah said she want DE-sTrEsSeD herself
haha, FUN! we boroskan our money!
Played guitar hero and other things too.
MAN, i suck at guitar Hero.
its like my fingers on my left hand cant coordinate with right fingers,
lol. really, i suck at this kind of games, prob all games.
LOL.

OKAY!
i think its just this.
hehe... nite ppl.
iffah:D

Now i realise you could be my friend i get excited for
Yes, a friend. That's all.
But youre the kind that makes me hyper:P

2009-09-25T16:33:00.000-07:00

~hi...
wah, im exausted from yesterday's Hari Raya wif friends, the 7 of us(hafidz didnt cum)
Guess wat time we go home. 11.30 pm
Guess wat time i reached home. 12. 50 am

My dad sent all of them home cos its the dead of the night.
Omg. i really cant believe it. First time, go H.R. wif frenz this LATE!
Sore feet from wearing high heels.

Anw, we had real FUN. i mean they~ keep saboing me and irfan, shura and iskandar.
OMG.kene teruk!
Thought of posting the pics here...
but All pics wif iskandar, cos he brought camera.

Anw, such a coincedence we ran into so many of our unity frenz that jalan raye juga
Haha. wen we going first house, saw the sec 3s. saw them at the MRT. LOL
Then 2nd time, at night about 1o+ pm, we saw our sec 2 friends at Yew Tee after goin syaf's house.
They say goin home, FINISH. WE. still got one more house to go.
Lastly, at sembawang goin liyana's house, saw another group of sec 3s.
saw familiar faces. hehe.
so funny cos azfar terus nampak shura, say ADI, ADI! LOL XD
They goin home also,FINISH. that time about 11 pm.
We leave about 11. 30. yarh

DEAD TIRED.
but happiee~ cos really have fun, cant stop laughing even though they make fun of us and also bcos of Iffah no.1, YEY!! Z*gleeing*

anw. cant really sleep well eventhough tired cos im having INSOMNIA.
Thinking of the jalan raye. hehe so fun
1st time liyana boleh ikut raye, YEY!
next year i not wearing high heels. too tiring.
me and shura and syaf was like so sore walking cos we wear high heels.
Especially shura. she had a tight front, really, really painful.
lol. GO pegi mintak iskandar dokong. LOLs XD
okok dont bully them. cos i also one of the victims.

ok. so yarh thats all. until the EYE finish, i guess. ;P
Iffah:)

I feel hyper whenever i see you eventhough all the energy's drained out of me.
It's like you're the juice that keeps me going.

2009-09-18T06:47:00.004-07:00

Hello, im back!
im almost done. just gotta add links.
nowadays my mum doesnt let me use the com. She say EXAM must study.
this one also i had to hide-hide, ask my dad for permission instead.
he let me, so..i happy! :D

aniwaes, my lifes kinda fun right now
schools fun, rite now:D
our class being rebellious..hehe
Joking-Joking, Play-PLay
but hey, we were never self-centred
we were not focused during some class
but self-centered, NO.
i say this. I stand up for my class.
cos i noe.
Sure our class Noisy Rowdy but never have we been THAT self-centered.
and hey, we re TEENS.
and yeah, we make jokes..u teachers enjoy it too rite??

LOL. im not getting uptight bout this.
Just u noe, i keep hearing stuff...bout our class. so ya.
Just to clear things up.
But i agree our class i a bit TOO rebellious,.
hehe... the day wen Mr Sony come, is it?
LOL. but i like him, he CRACKS me up XD

and hey, this may be the last time i using the com.
so guys, if i havent add ur links, sry... hadnt had much time

okaes, so this is it. Gd nite:)
Iffah

I gotta keep reminding myself:
"Dont look, dont LOOK! Dont even dare peek a look "
but, temptation Kills...so does addiction.

MANTAINENCE...sorry

2009-09-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

i am back updating my blog again!
been a long time..
i break free at last.
it feels good posting on my blog
like my new skin?
nothing big so far
my life's the same
HARI RAYE cumin'
yes LOVE IT
hope we'll be performing for dikir barat
no updates so far
thats all, yarh
iffah:)

i seriously gotta stop looking outside the window. :P
ppl here are gettin hints, lol. XD

2009-05-04T23:11:00.001-07:00

Havent been posting for quite a while...
anw...posting recent updates...

SYF~silver. wohoo.

anw...im now crazy about HP...HARRY POTTER..
hehe

WOO! gonna POST videos about couples in HP..BETTER watch
tak tengok rugi....

Draco and Hermione

Cedric and Hermione

Ron and Hermione

My 3 fav couples!!! Which one couples do you guys like??

All videos are created by Corrnelia. Her Videos are JUST AWSOME!

2009-04-15T02:58:00.000-07:00

harlo....
Days to SYF: 6

Very CLOSE, isnt it?
Funny how it seems so relax and calm and to think that SYF is only a one digit number of days...
SAD...i feel SAD...its going to be my last performance for choir and we're doing it BADLY so FAR

Haiz...c'mon...WHAT THE HELL is WRONG with US???!!!!!
its frustrating...i SERIOUSLY pity him.
Now, i know how it feels like.
I totally UNDERSTAND why he's giving up on us right now.

SHIT. We're a bunch of hopeless singers still trying to find the instruction manual when everybody's done with it. 'GROAN'

SAD.FRUSTRATING.STRESSED.WTF-Kinda-Emotion.Going Insane (better change th blogskin)

Im feeling the blues. but still life goes on. And then you DIE. this part SUCKS.

2009-04-12T02:10:00.000-07:00

YES!! finally i have time to blog.
just want to post some recent updates OR ONE happening in my life.

yesterday SAT practice was BAD. BAD BAD BAD. REALLY BAD. WORST OF THE WORST.
(notice that it was so bad that the words are all caps)

I cant believe it. WTF
he's giving HOPE on us.
WTH. PLS DUN DO THIS TO US! im BEGGING u.

OMG...HOW?? is it really bad when we SANG?
AWW COME ON....we know we were BAD. but we SERIOUSLY CANT HELP IT.
i JUST dunno WHY///it comes NATURALLY...i guess

I put a HELL lot of TIME, THINKING and GUTS to STAY ON FOR SYF
and you're giving up ON US! WTF
(sry, use of vulgarities, but not referring to the PERSON, its the MATTER)

haiz...MUST WORK SUPER HARD FROM NOW ON
band gettin SILVER. more pressure on us, must not get lower (no offense, really)
MALU SEH if got bronze or COP.
haiz...dunno how
see lah if tomorrow...
WALAU eh...:(

2009-03-23T07:17:00.000-07:00

Phew!
At Long Last, i can relax and on the com.

Lately, i've been busy... with... stuff.
y' know, school stuff.

today's choir practice was...better than i expected.
i thought he'll be scolding us for the saturday FLOP.
ya.. we flop on saturday exchange.
SO MALU SEH!
but better then last year's.
he's becoming NICER and NICER.
dunno why.. got one time while singing...he kept staring at me...smiling.
wierd... i tot he asking me to smile...so I DID...AT HIM. LOL

Anw...so cant wait to go JAKARTA!!!
AHem...i mean... Yogyakarta (actual spelling)
Already planning what clothes to wear...
'Yeeeee!' so HAPPY!!!
SRY...being INSANE.
cant imagine how the room will be like...
hope it's a HOTEL..
No..it'll BETTER BE.
i paid a TOTAL of $ 900 for this trip...
Hahah. Anw...i'll think i get a shut eye now...
*Yawning* :P

Well...that's simply life<3

2009-03-18T02:41:00.000-07:00

Canggih, EVERYONE!
LOL
just so you know the yellow thinigi that i doodle is our symbol
Hahah

Anw.
yesterday was BBQ night with the neighbours.
And at first i was like no mood to go
cos jus came back from choir practice(which took till 7.30PM)
i didnt eat much..though

Then they ask play games.
Wah..lagi i lazy...and malu cos i sec 2 mah.
then found out got 2 sec 3 students, so play lah.

Dunno why at the last we all get so enthu.
Got the sec 3 guy (4get the name) was like so into the game.
Last game was like take a rubberband and go thru ur body.
i was like jumping up and down then got paiseh.

Our group won. got a PINK notebook. my FAV colour.
then, played concentration. wah we were like laughing hyrestically at ourselves reaction to concentrate and saboeing ppl.
then, got too loud \. the adults was like 'shhing' us.

Last, we played was blind mice and balance catching.
wah..havent played that game since i was like p4. 4 years ago.
we sabo ppl summore.the same people.
got one we played blind mice.
and we sabo this guy by leaving him alone to search us(eyes closed) and we all ran away.
Hahah. his reaction was like so HILARIOUS. xD

then, we went back home. was laughing with my sis on the way home.
BTW..i was surprised how my neighbours changed.
They all grew tall EXCEPT FOR ME.
how LONG does it take for me to GROW??

Well...that-simply-life<3

2009-03-14T02:47:00.000-07:00

"Im not gonna write you a love song cos you ask for it, cos you need one...you see"

I just hate being pushed around.
Telling me to do this and that.
Totally not writing you a love song for you
And i certainly do NOT care. 100%

Choir is OK.
He seems to go a little bit soft on me. i think.
Cos of the other day... yeah
Oh...the reflection...i wrote.
I think he'll be mad at me.

Did physical training at choir.
Quite Fun.
And funny, if u heard how we sang.

Calculate the hours again.
53 hours of ordeal.
Hahah. u shld know what i meant by 'ordeal'

Call me crazy. Insane. Maniac
Well...as you can see the BIG heading on top.
Cant wait till the 52 hours are OVER.

Then. ~IM FREE~*lifts up both hands*
Hahah. im being insane...again.

So can't wait till JUNE.
Going Jakarta. Sweet
I think i'll be bunking with Yanty and Liyana.
Thinking what clothes to bring.
Anw, im glad everyone in the 2hml is going.
Bonding time. LOL
*pls,dun think dirty...or is it just ME?
oops...

2009-03-10T02:48:00.000-07:00

i cried.
i broke down.
and i decided to ... STAY ON

im seriously STRESSED.
and the whole day and night ive been thinking about it.

Right Now, I just want to think through SYF and then NO MORE. That's it, GUYS... 21st April will be the last day im performing with you guys. I cant wait for this day but yet i dreaded it.
I really tot i was leaving before SYF but now i just want to say..OK lets do it for the CCA points!
selfish..i noe but that's how i stop myself breaking down every time.

Lately, i dunno why i feel like crying whenever i came to choir. Maybe im starting to have my mood swings. Gr8! at this time all of times.

Yesterday talked with Ms Lee. Told her i wanna quit SO BADLY! but then decided not to. Crammed up all night thinking about that too. Jus wanna say to her i'll go after SYF.
That way everyone's Happy, i hope. I'll get my cca points, we went through SYF together And then i'll leave.

1 month and 10 days=12 practices=50 hours=8 days of 6 hours per day + 1 day with 2 hours.

im calculative, yes
50 more hours of ordeal then it's over.
that's like 2 whole days with non-stop singing.
Hmm.. better than waiting in fear for 1 month and 10 days.XD

C'mon, iffah. you can do it.

Im starting to gat pep talks for myself to get me motivated until SYF. then im free at last~XD

Anw, thx for all the support, you guys.
i guess singing's not my kind of thing.

Gonna Miss you'all after SYF! :)
JiaYo until SYF!

2009-03-04T01:55:00.000-08:00

E-learning today was much better than yesterday...

ANW
Ok... i was like looking through the wonder girls song in youtube...
and guess what i found...

Wierd huh?

I dunno whether he's gay.. but i think he is...
There were loads of other vids but i picked the best
i seriously didnt know that there were loads of white ppl that like korean songs and their dance steps...

hey...liyana...maybe if you want to learn how to dance the steps..u shld see his other vids...haha

2009-03-02T19:45:00.000-08:00

Didicazli feat Sleeq - ImpianKu.

A reward or a just a simple gift?

2009-02-27T02:17:00.000-08:00

"i want a guy that's two in one, a duo-function guy...haha. The brains and the brauns"

YES!!
Joy to the world, a practice has been cancelled...lala lala lala!!!
Haha! finally, a late Saturday morning!!
Been waiting it for so long...

Anw...
i was thinking of making a comic strip of zutara...
Should i?
im scared im not able to finish it...

Anw again...

Check out this wacked guy

that simply life..wad

A simple easy life

2009-02-26T02:34:00.000-08:00

A Simple And Easy Life.
That's what i craved for.
Sadly, now, im going to stress
which i probably said it so many times before.

My studies are all going "keplank"
My CCA is too stressful.
My personal life is not going well too.
And i am going bogus about it.

BOGUS. INSANE. MANIAC.

And it's going to be worse when i show them my math results.
Tution will be next. Great. Woohoo...

Right now, i just want to slack. relax al little...
if too much stress, i'll grow wrinkles and look old.

ANW
Our Delicios' BAked Macarroni Cheeeeeese was SUPERB!
Though presentation we lack but The other cookers was craving for our Delicios' BAked Macarroni Cheeeeeese!!!!

Hope we win :]

That's simply life...wad :P

2009-02-22T01:36:00.000-08:00

Dedicated to 'Who are you'

The art of Love Confession
my style...
i got my idea from the korean drama'Who are you'

"The first time we met, you attacked me with your words that felt like stones yet the other saved me from you, as if an angel was given to me. If you are a sane person, who would you choose to trust? Of course, u you'd choose the other guy, rite? But why does my heart feels this way?It's either im not sane or ...it's just you... I don't know why but i feel much safer around you, like i can trust you."

"How does your heart feel?"

"My heart...it feels confused"

"Why?"

"Im not sure why my heart feels closer to you. tsk (short laugh) And why i decided to chose you since the other guy is so much handsome...and kinder...and also rich...and friendlier...and_"

"What? you think i cant be like that? im not handsome enough for you_(realises his mistake and looked away, blushing)"

" What did you just say?"

" I said nothi_"

" Seems like you're jealous"

"No im not! tsk! for what? jealous over you? yeah right! A girl like you. im also confused. Why does he like you? What did you do to him? Put a spell on hi_( realises he's going overbroad after looking at her expression)

"(looked as if going to cry but then gather up her courage) Dont you think that was a bit too much?Alright then. Whatever. (turns and walk away) (stop suddenly and turns to him) And for the record, you're not exactly the ladies-type kind of guy.( said in a teasing way and sticks out her tongue) (turns away) tsk. why did i fall for such a guy?(talking to herself and thens walk away)

" (regretted what he just said) (and keep hitting his head with his fist)u stupid,stupid guy!"

2009-02-16T04:43:00.000-08:00

"im full of confusion now - why couldnt every practice be like this? still...should i let it go??"

Yup, im confused.

Seriously confused.

im not sure whether i should stay on or let it go.

Seriously...i was about to let it go but...

TODAY HE WAS NICE

TODAY HE DIDNT LOSE HIS COOL

TODAY HE WAS IN A VERY GOOD MOOD

AND TODAY IM CONFUSED

Finally, i made a decision to stay on...for now...or at least after SYF +D

Anw, its only until April.

THEN, i can finally be FREE.

FREE.

how i craved for it.

Why? why me?

i had a feeling somehow it was fated for this chosen people to join choir to feel how stressful the real world's gonna be.

AND I AM LOSING IT SO FAR.

For the record, last Sat, i seriously broke down QUIETLY in my bedroom.

Great. now im officially EMO.

Suffering alone with no one to comfort.

YUCK!

i cant take it knowing that ive cried

i dunno... i felt like i was like those weakling girls that always cries no matter how small the matter was...like im also such a crybaby that people will be always annoyed...the kind that wasnt tough, too fragile.

i should have a pledge for this.

I, iffah khairani, must not cry over such small matters.

Even when being scolded, i must not take it to the heart, but to the lungs, regardless of who it is.

HAHA.

Lately, you know ive been stressed.

Mrs Selvan was concerned about my Math thats been going bad and, great, i have a 'conselling session' with her.

Yeah, maybe i could just babble through the whole time about my stressful cca.

somethings here are never fair.

Well...that's simply life.

2009-02-14T03:05:00.000-08:00

my cca might have make my life miserable
but believing in Zutara gets me through everytime
Zutara Forever!

Never Ever Stop Believing!
Zutara has NO END!!!

If only i was waterbender then i can tottaly use it on u-noe-hu! heh-heh

"Believing in Zutara makes u relief from stress!"

Zutara is my life<3

2009-02-13T20:01:00.000-08:00

Im so STRESSED wif CHOIR

it keeps haunting me again and again
like theres no end to it...

after today's choir, i felt like bawling out with my tears all that

Before practice, comes with the same fear and uncomfortableness then stress
During good practice, comes with a relief but sitll the stress
During bad practice, comes with the stress and fear
Every good practice ends, comes with a relief
Every bad practice ends, comes with the regretion and stress then reilef(becos its over)

today, it started quite good and ends bad (of course it had to do sumtin with me)
i dunno why he had to be so harsh with his words.

i had enough with all this embarassing and stress
i havent even reached 14 and the stress is all over me now

Should i let it go or should i carry on?
my family and friends told me i should let it go BUT HOW?
its like wasted effort for last year and ive already come this far
but i still had a long way to go

I wouldnt have felt regretted if he wasnt so fearsome...
If it wasnt for the cca points... i would have...__________

i cant even be a happy kid now
like im becoming emo...

i so wish this would end fast
like a person being shot instead of being hanged
...to die of course.

stress-stress-stress-stress - i HATE this word..of course next to 'a-hem' (u noe hu)

2009-02-08T04:23:00.000-08:00

STRESSED OUT

im tottaly stressed!

...schoolwork, D&T, choir, SYF, bottles recycling...Choir...

Yeah, practically, choir is making me stress

cos i can handle the other things...seriously

Sat

i was in probation...almost cleared out...

cos i did sumtin wrong that even i dunno why

U noe if he(u noe hu) was a bit patient and less sterner.

i would have enjoyed choir.

i mean he can be stern but without the shouting and embarassing and the discouraging, pls?

Now, everytime i come to choir its like a nightmare to me...

i used to love and enjoy singing...

now, its like i have to be careful.

i mean , yeah , i worked hard...

but that day, i dunno why that sound came out...

seriously,I felt like crying but i hold on, then i realised its kinda stupid...

For what cry?? that stress was so little...it shows that im really weak

SO, i decided to stay on cos if the others can stay on and 'suffer', why not me??

and hey, this is just learining how to handle stress...like preparing fo the real world..

and if i stay positive, maybe i can get through this..

Sec 4 choir members...i salute to you..for staying this far and managing time and work and stress with choir and the 'o' levels.

"Stress is just in your mind...

you have to overcome it and always stay positive..."

My motto for managing stress =)

2009-01-29T01:21:00.000-08:00

My Fav Pic

HI guys!

Nothing interesting today... unless u find the choir's performance was good.

aniwae...just wanted to post some pics and vids of ZUTARA...
its okay if u seriously dun like it...

anw..
ENJOY!

Aww! so cute.. she water bends for him as an umbrella.

CUTE!! so funny..haha
PS: In the cave, Zuko and Katara was stuck in acave and Katara was about to heal Zuko's scar until that Stupid Bald guy came...AKA: the avatar ..useless avatar!

Time for vids!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5PBXd
This vid was unable to embbed but i totally love this vid. i bawl my eyes out because of this video. The link's there if u want to watch it.

another one of my faves<3>

2009-01-24T23:38:00.000-08:00

INSANE

about what??

about ZUTARA, of course

i keep doodling ZUTARA

and over the weekend i made a comic strip about it!

it's really short... two pages

and took me two days to finish it...

excluding the colouring, of course.

This few weeks

im all about ZUTARA

cos i juz remembered it

though the series are over

and ZUTARA never happened,( Mike and Brya are gonna get it from me)

theres a bunch of ZUTARA fan videos

sry, this few weeks

ive been lazy to post

cos busy and

of course, busy watching ZUTARA :P

Ive relinked and my blog is now in maintanence

thx for visiting my new blog <33